silver linings

Silver Linings
Always. Every conceivable situation has em.
It’s all about how objective you are capable of being.. and maybe perceptive too.

You know this if you’ve been around long enough, and travelled far enough: If you are flying solo; if you do not have someone you love with you to make the shit you do, or don’t do…. matter – then you are living a diminished life.  Bullshit yourself all you want… if you can. We both know that there’s always an ingredient missing from the best meal, the best paycheck, the best day…. Whatever.
That missing thing is another person who truly gives a fuck.. And the only person who is ever able to truly give a fuck about you is someone who has thrown their pot in with yours, all the way; someone who does not have the option of shaking their head sadly and mumbling a few words about ‘damn, what a shame..’ and then putting your misfortune right on out of their thoughts as they turn off the bedroom lights and turn to their other, spooned maybe a bit tighter than usual.  In other words, a person who is at all times sitting in the passenger seat.  Your win is theirs. When you wreck, you wreck for two.  When you check out, there they are wondering how the fuck they are gonna ….do anything at all while they lay there in a small isolated and pitch black corner of the depths.
Without that person, you, and I… whoever… is living a second rate life- plain and simple.
The silver lining……
It comes at the end, mostly… at least it seems likely. In the absence of fucks given, there’s no need to give a fuck. A little regret.. bitterness, maybe… but no heartbreaking despair, nor it’s reflection mirrored in the eyes of the one in the passenger seat as you are fading to black.
Not the shiniest of silver linings, but hey- that’s gotta count for something. And if not.. (and this is the beauty of it): who gives a fuck?

And so it goes, two and a half years later, that I have lost the silver lining which I took solace in. Lost…. well maybe sacrificed it would be more accurate. Threw it right the fuck away. I traded it in, in favor of the gold lining. You know who you are.

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7 Responses to “silver linings”

  1. Darlene Owens Cirinna Says:

    One might say that they don’t, but they do. Perhaps you are too quick to discard people?

    • Tracie D. Says:

      Actions speak louder than words.

    • Tracie D. Says:

      Actions speak louder than words. Silence means nothing if when you come down to it, a person is there for you.

      • Darlene Owens Cirinna Says:

        I hope I never make that mistake, Tracie. BTW… It’s your turn in WWF. LOL

        • Tracie D. Says:

          I rarely if ever remove someone from my life.It’s only under the most extreme of circumstances that I do or would. Everyone is human and makes mistakes and sometimes people don’t live up to our hopes or expectations but I believe most people are worth a second chance and sometimes, perhaps even a third. It depends on how important the person is to me and how much they might have hurt me, if they did.

          And with that, I’ll head over to WWF, LOL

  2. Tracie D. Says:

    Someone once told me that f*cking is like pizza…..even when it’s bad, it’s good. With that thought in mind, I would like to say this. When it comes to someone giving a f*ck, whether it’s in a literal or figurative sense, even if it’s not exactly the kind you really want or are looking for, shouldn’t it still be appreciated and not discounted to be any less of a f*ck just because, again, it’s not exactly the kind you hoped for? Many people can go through their whole lives with no one ever wanting to give them a f*ck of ANY kind! So if someone deems someone to be f*ckworthy, in ANY manner, shouldn’t that still mean something, regardless of who it is coming from? Because in the end, even if you never find a co-pilot to share your life with, isn’t it better to know that at least you were truly and sincerely cared about by SOME, even if it wasn’t by just a single someone? Just some food for thought….like some really good pizza.

  3. Cowgirl Says:

    As you probably know, I like to disagree with a lot of stuff. But you know? I can’t really argue with this. Except for the last line. We all know it’s kind of true and it’s kind of not.

    Let me open a box for you, a treasure box that God has filled, and take out a little word of wisdom. If you will find God’s purpose for your life and give yourself to it—she will be in the middle of it, shining like an angel, an angel that has been hiding in the shadows waiting for you to find God’s purpose for your life!

    Ok, I will shut the lid now and take my leave.

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